A thank you on your birthday

Dearest Roman,
 When you were born I wrote you a letter in your baby book about how much I love you and how much you changed my life, but how was I to know?! How was I to know that that was just the tip of the iceberg? So on your 5th birthday I'd like to give you this 2nd edition, sequel, part 2, whatever you want to call it because baby it's been a long 5 years.
 Really, mostly I want to thank you. You sir, helped me find me. You've taken me to the end of my patience. Which turns out is way further than I ever imagined it could be. This has allowed me to take up more hobbies, finish more projects, be more organized. I mean all those things require tons of patience....that you forced me find.
 I'm thankful for your love. Your sweet, innocent love. When you tell me, "Mommy I love your wobbly tummy." I cringe and laugh but then I think, "who cares! Thats right I have a wobbly tummy, cause I make adorable kids! What can you do?!" pshhh. Even though these are still insecurities I have I am way more confident than I have ever been in my life. Because you tell me I'm beautiful. When you look at me with those BIG brown eyes, I feel it. I feel beautiful, and it stays with me.
  Because of the love I have for you, I feel it, I get it. The world isn't full of people to me anymore.
It's full of children and parents. I feel connected, I feel other's peoples pain and joy. I want to be more aware. I want to do good. I want to shout from the rooftops, "ISNT LIFE AMAZING!" All that emotion, induced by just one of your squishy hugs.
 I feel like I'm glowing all the time. I think its a mixture of my high blood pressure from raising two boys and the warm love.
 So here I am.. this loved, loving, patient, beautiful mom all because you made me this way. I can only imagine on what a high pedestal you will put your future wife. And that overwhelms me with this blissful sadness. Oh boy.. don't cry...Thank you Roman. Thank you for being a fun son, a doting brother and an all around cool kid that makes me so proud to be your parent. Happy 5th birthday, I can't wait to see what the future holds for you!